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"What we achieve inwardly will change outer reality." ~Plutarch

"[this quote] expresses in part our inescapable connection with the outside world.  We touch other people's lives simply by existing." ~J K Rowling

The Harvard Speech
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I had a request to post my words from Donald's memorial service. I've posted what I had written plus an approximation of some other parts I ad-libbed on.


Donald asked me to marry him last summer. I couldn’t say yes at the time, but I didn’t say no. At the time I had barely met his daughters and hadn’t met any of the rest of his family. We both had things we needed to work on. But I asked if we could work on these things so that it could one day be “yes” and we had begun to do that.

I met Donald soon after I moved to Seattle in March of 2006 when we worked for the same remodeling company. I remember our first real conversation, a coincidental meeting on a ferry on a sunny day in August of 2006. I was in costume headed to a Renaissance Faire. We discovered our common interests in costuming, history, and sharp-edged weapons. When he returned to work on Monday, he told his coworkers, "She's got swords."

I've heard it said that "when the student is ready, the teacher will appear."

Before I met Donald, I had never heard of "polyamory". The lifestyle at first seemed too foreign for me to accept. We went our separate ways for a while and when we started dating again I knew better what to expect, but still the reprogramming of relationship expectations and boundaries was a challenge, to say the least. Donald did not ask me to accept this challenge. He simply made it available.

My personal rewards in regard to polyamory are many. The one that is most striking today is the sense of kind community I feel with Donald's Loves, past and present. We have come together in our shared loss and have been of great comfort for each other.

Donald also introduced me to the Goth community. Again, he simply opened the door to my Goth closet and left it for me to exit in my own way. In this community I have discovered a place where, more than any other group outside of my family, I feel understood, loved and at home.

The most important thing Donald shared with me was his family, and especially his girls. I was honored that he trusted me enough to introduce me to his daughters and to bring me into his family. I was honored to also bring him into mine.

Through my personal relationship with Donald, I learned that I was more loveable than I had ever realized. He saw beauty all around him and through him I learned to see more as well. When I felt I was at my worst, he still saw beauty in me.

His depth of character challenged me to reach deeper into mine. He was not afraid of my honesty, which encouraged me to speak it out loud more often.

Donald was a natural born healer. Reiki was one of several modalities of energy work that he studied. He believed that he was obligated to give freely of his healing ability. He helped to increase my own understanding of Reiki and as a result I know I have more to offer as a healer.

In the arts, Donald's example inspired me to take up my camera again. His encouragement led me to share my art with others.

Donald did not fear any of life's experiences and emotions. He enjoyed watching others look at his own works, happy to see their reactions. Again his example taught me something, both as an artist and as an observer of others' art, to not fear the display of an honest reaction.

Donald's presence created a special space where kindness, personal responsibility and honesty were welcomed and nurtured. But, for all the openness of his heart, he was slow to confide its secrets. Much of who he was will always be a mystery and I think he would want it that way. It’s okay that we don’t know everything.

Donald's world was full of kind and caring people. The experience that we each had with him was unique and I hope a source of celebration for us all.

Donald believed that death was not to be feared, but accepted as part of our souls' journey. The Friday after Donald died, a few of his friends created a small, beautiful shrine in the space where he died. Many of those who gathered that evening went to that place and I could see that it aided them in their grieving. Overnight it rained. In the morning I went out again to the shrine. As I sat before it in the morning silence, I felt the Earth beneath me pulse with life and knew that Donald was a part of it.

Though we may ache at the loss of his physical existence, and though his life ended in great pain, that one moment cannot diminish the blazing light of Loving Kindness that was and is Donald's Presence in this world and in our lives.
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"Life doesn't always come with a set of instructions. In fact, most of the time it just comes. Every morning, like clockwork. It's there when you open your eyes, and it's still there even if you don't." ~From "Early Edition" 1x04
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Grief is a journey, often perilous and without clear direction, that must be taken. The experience of grieving cannot be ordered or categorized, hurried or controlled, pushed aside or ignored indefinitely. It is inevitable as breathing, as change, as love. It may be postponed, but it will not be denied.

~Molly Fumia

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"Someone asked me if I had any resolutions this year. I laughed out loud. I have no resolution this year as I want to just BE. I know all things are happening as they should and, eventually, for the greater good. In 2010 I hope to find that space of centered harmony and I wish the same for you.  Have a happy, healthy and harmonious 2010!"

~Shirley MacLaine, 12/30/2009
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This Lau Tzu phrase occurs to me from time to time. Today is a good day for me to revisit it.


Tao Te Ching - Lao Tzu - chapter 22

Yield and overcome;
Bend and be straight;
Empty and be full;
Wear out and be new;
Have little and gain;
Have much and be confused.

Therefore wise men embrace the one
And set an example to all.
Not putting on a display,
They shine forth.
Not justifying themselves,
They are distinguished.
Not boasting,
They receive recognition.
Not bragging,
They never falter.
They do not quarrel,
So no one quarrels with them.
Therefore the ancients say, 'Yield and overcome.'
Is that an empty saying?
Be really whole,
And all things will come to you.

(translation by Gia-fu Feng and Jane English)


Jan. 19th, 2009 10:17 pm
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"Ladies, no matter what size or shape your butt, some guy out there is diggin' on it."


Original, Jan-18-09, 11:17AM

"Save Santa the trip, be naughty."

"I took a detour.  My internal GPS says 'Recalculating Route'."

Grunting, gasping, "WTF?!" and "Yes!" from my brother-in-law from behind the closed door of the bathroom.....which he is remodeling.


Dec. 20th, 2008 09:35 am
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Came across this today.  Made me laugh.  Lots.

"Build a man a fire, and he'll be warm for a day.  Set a man on fire, and he'll be warm for the rest of his life."  - Terry Pratchett
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"At the end of the day, campaigns are campaigns. In the last five days, it always comes down to a knife fight in a telephone booth."

a Democratic political consultant


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